I was wondering if I should update this, and say what has happened lately. I was going to do that yesterday, and didn't. Today, my sister and "out of the blue", said she had just gone and checked out this old blog for some reason, and I felt it was a nudge from the Lord telling me to go ahead. I don't know if I will continue this blog or begin a new one, or neither.....
- This past year has been one of many changes. The way the Lord took my precious husband home less than a year ago demands a full page! Then less than 2 months later, my son was diagnosed with glioblastoma brain cancer. The blogs he and his wife wrote were truly marvelous, in their honoring Jesus Christ throughout the nine months God gave him, until he, too, was taken home to be with his Savior and Lord.
I, of course, am still going through periods of tears, but then, wiping them away, and often begin laughing at some sweet remembrance. I don’t do a good job of managing my emotions, but I do have peace….most of the time I have on my wall now a big picture of Joel, and my Earl, as they sat on the shore of the lake here a few years ago.
The Lord gave me a great verse on the day that He took my Earl to glory, saying in part, “And you became mine”. Although Earl was a wonderful provider, and loved me deeply, (I really miss him!) yet the LORD has assured me that He will be that “husband”, that “provider”, that “lover” to me. I didn’t know how much I would need Him to be that for me in the days and months that followed. He has proved Himself over and over to be so marvelously wonderful and true to His Word! Joel’s glioblastoma brain cancer was diagnosed less than 2 months after his dad’s homegoing.
I was blessed with getting to know my daughter-in-law's folks and their wonderful care for my son and boys. I felt honored to be with my daughter-in-law and see her and my son’s precious love, loyalty and care for one another, even on those hardest days…and their living up to their desire to be joyful in the Lord at all times. I was blessed to see their care and provision for their two boys, and how these young grandsons are handling this great loss. I cannot describe the amount of love and support from their friends in California. To God be the glory!
Now, I am back home, and as far as I know, I will not be “spreading my wings” for distant flights, though many places are calling me!!! I do have tests to see if this over-hanging shadow of cancer has changed at all. I do feel well, and my strength seems to be improving. It is good to be home again, and I do need to do a major fall cleanup of my home. Seeing the world with so many tears, terror and uncertainty in so many places, makes me realize that I have too much “stuff” as well, and I want to be faithful in what He provides.