When I have good days like today, it's easier to think..."hey, I'm going to be alright....maybe even healed". Then someone will say, "Do you go by feelings, or by faith?" (Some days I'm rather emotional and surely not full of faith, particularly not for healing!) That's where I'm at now. I do have faith that God can just touch me and heal me now before that perfect healing that I know for sure is coming when I stand in His presence. Then there's that "but" as I see people that God is using in such a wonderful way who have not been healed--Dave Roever for example (http://daveroever.org/) , as well as Joni Erikson Tada.(http://www.joniandfriends.org/). How marvelously God has and is using them! Also, I've seen people who have had much greater faith than I, who have prayed for healing in this life, but didn't receive it...but God took them to Heaven, and they are healed eternally!
Now today, I've listened on my computer to TBN's Praise the Lord (an archive of Feb. 24)
http://www.tbn.org/video_portal/. I put it on as I wanted to listen to Hussein Steve Mashni again, who says "I don't say, I was a Muslim and I became a Christian. I say, I was dead and I came to life..I wasn't dead because I was a Muslim...I was dead because I didn't have Jesus in my life... " He also had some interesting things about Egypt and Isaiah 19 that I wanted to hear again.
Well, anyway, waiting to get to this man's testimony I listened to another man who was from Missouri who preached to 30 or 40 in his little church, but when he went to third world countries, he preached to 30 and 40,000 people and saw soooooooooooo many "signs and wonders". He wondered why God wasn't doing it here in the USA. God told him to start preaching and praying for it here in the US. It encourages me to pray and trust the Lord for healing....wouldn't that be a "sign and wonder" to the people in Diamond City????
I have gone the James 5 route of asking to be anointed with oil (now I'll copy from www.blueletterbible.org which is about my favorite Bible study site....)
So I've done that.... and
I am so thankful that I am in God's hands, since I do have Jesus Christ as my Savior and my Lord, and I can leave the choice to Him. He knows so much better than I what will be best, not just for me, but those whom my life touches. Thanks for listening, and for praying :)
As I've read this over, I realized it's me, me, me! Forgive me, Lord! I want Thee, Thee, Thee!!!!
Now today, I've listened on my computer to TBN's Praise the Lord (an archive of Feb. 24)
http://www.tbn.org/video_portal/. I put it on as I wanted to listen to Hussein Steve Mashni again, who says "I don't say, I was a Muslim and I became a Christian. I say, I was dead and I came to life..I wasn't dead because I was a Muslim...I was dead because I didn't have Jesus in my life... " He also had some interesting things about Egypt and Isaiah 19 that I wanted to hear again.
Well, anyway, waiting to get to this man's testimony I listened to another man who was from Missouri who preached to 30 or 40 in his little church, but when he went to third world countries, he preached to 30 and 40,000 people and saw soooooooooooo many "signs and wonders". He wondered why God wasn't doing it here in the USA. God told him to start preaching and praying for it here in the US. It encourages me to pray and trust the Lord for healing....wouldn't that be a "sign and wonder" to the people in Diamond City????
I have gone the James 5 route of asking to be anointed with oil (now I'll copy from www.blueletterbible.org which is about my favorite Bible study site....)
      |  Jam 5:13 | Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing psalms. | |
| Jam 5:14 | Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. | |
| Jam 5:15 | And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. | |
 | Jam 5:16 | Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. |
So I've done that.... and
- I am taking JuicePlus capsules morning and evening
- I am taking Tamoxifen morning and evening (as it stops or slows the growth of this kind of cancer),
- I am exercising some, and get fresh air in a little walk each day with Earl,
- I've been trying to cut out most white sugar, and eating in a pretty healthy way, I think
I am so thankful that I am in God's hands, since I do have Jesus Christ as my Savior and my Lord, and I can leave the choice to Him. He knows so much better than I what will be best, not just for me, but those whom my life touches. Thanks for listening, and for praying :)
As I've read this over, I realized it's me, me, me! Forgive me, Lord! I want Thee, Thee, Thee!!!!
"When your vision becomes cloudy, ask God to help you to see your situation from His perspective. Remember, from His vantage point, life is viewed with extreme clarity and hope." from Michael Youssef's devotional today
ReplyDeleteMom, I don't think your being selfish for writing your own processing through this time in your life. We all have our opinions of what is best for you. And in each of us in our own rights, is right. But only you can walk this road, as it is you that has been given this road to walk. Everyone has a right to think through this process. None of us have a right to judge that process. Good for you for showing your actual thought process, and decision making through this time. I for one enjoyed the read. You are human just like the rest of us. ;) Love you mom and so proud of your courage. I pray God continues to show you the way....
ReplyDeleteHey, sis, hope you don't get tired of my comments. Marye and I were talking about her pilgrimage with Tamoxifen, and she made a comment that stuck with me. She said, "Just cause you don't feel like the medicine is not working doesn't mean it isn't." Guess that's true of faith, too - don't you think?
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